distractions

so my homecoming dress came today, the one i fell in love with. and it was the wrong dress; that's all im going to say because it makes me really angry to think about it. so i was thinking about stuff in history today, and about the people in my oh so grand life. and about the ones we love; i know i love only a few people in my life. i find it hard to connect with people on a real level, so i have a lot of good friends, but few really awesomely true friends (yes i just wrote that). the same goes for Alex. it's kind of like shiny new toys, you want them at first, but you're always going to back to your old original one that youve had for so long, at least that's the way i see it. so i find interest in the new people i meet, and i like them alot at first, but at the end of the day there is really only that one person that i truly want, and care about. the others don't mean anything, because i think when it comes down to it, you only have one person that really means something to you. i'm just trying to take every day and learn something from it, highschool is a crazy experience and fun new things are always getting thrown my way now. it's easy to get caught up, and i feel like i'm in a position where i'm caught right now- i'm trying not to get too distracted.