distractions

so my homecoming dress came today, the one i fell in love with. and it was the wrong dress; that's all im going to say because it makes me really angry to think about it. so i was thinking about stuff in history today, and about the people in my oh so grand life. and about the ones we love; i know i love only a few people in my life. i find it hard to connect with people on a real level, so i have a lot of good friends, but few really awesomely true friends (yes i just wrote that). the same goes for Alex. it's kind of like shiny new toys, you want them at first, but you're always going to back to your old original one that youve had for so long, at least that's the way i see it. so i find interest in the new people i meet, and i like them alot at first, but at the end of the day there is really only that one person that i truly want, and care about. the others don't mean anything, because i think when it comes down to it, you only have one person that really means something to you. i'm just trying to take every day and learn something from it, highschool is a crazy experience and fun new things are always getting thrown my way now. it's easy to get caught up, and i feel like i'm in a position where i'm caught right now- i'm trying not to get too distracted.

infidelity

fid, fis, lity, whatever! roman and greek roots are taking over my life...stupid english class. i don't think that teachers should allow you to have history class at the very end of the day, it goes by impossibly slow and quite frankly i can't be attentive to save my life. other than history and english roots, life's been going pretty well. Aubrey made my day today :). aubreys a very very interesting person, forreal. she always says really peculiar things that make you wonder. today, AUBREY CALLED ME NICE. and she said she liked my homecoming dress! speaking of which since i'm a fairly new highschooler, what the heck are you supposed to wear to homecoming?! one person tells me to go casual, while another says go dressy, and then some people say to not even go. but it's an occasion and occasions deserve pretty dresses :). so i got one and we'll just have to see where the heck i where it too.
oh and one more thing. i'm getting Moe's today! which officially means that it's a good day :p i'm going with lauren grant and alexander (not the one i mentioned before). oh and laurens my neighbor, we do everything together kinda crazy, but true. i'm obsessed with Moe's if you haven't caught on. so you officially know some stupid facts about me, lucky you.

it takes two to tango

today went by slowly. okay so about as slow as it takes to get sap out of a jar (that was my attempt at exaggerating). i guess once you get the hang of the whole high school life you subconsciously live through every dreadful (not always) day. i'm having quite the dilemma, if we're gonna be honest. my friend, we'll name him Paul; he is awesome, and i love the kid to death, but his honesty is hard. he tells it like it is, i think we can all say that we have one of those friends. and i have another friend, who we can call Alex. he's a very very cute friend that i am very fond of. okay okay, he's my boyfriend if we're gonna be specific here. most of my friends, girls/boys, like my boyfriend Alex, and they think he's good for me. on the other hand, some don't think he treats me the best he could. so are my friends like Paul being to quick to judge? how do we know what to call good or bad, fat or skinny, mean or nice? and sometimes when it comes down to it, only the two people in the relationship can really decipher and know what's going on. but hey, yeah, we're young and stupid so let's figure out our own problems, eh? after all, it takes two to tango ;)

friday nights? what's that

so i'll explain this as easily as i can: friday nights are life in highschool. right? i mean same goes for you older people ;) so it doesn't come easy for me to just go to practice every friday night. don't get me wrong, I love swimming, but i also love friday night football games. so all you kids who don't have prior commitments on friday nights, consider yourself lucky! every friday i have a 2 hour practice, which incidentally goes through the football games and every other social outing/party that i may be invited too.

before i gave my friday nights away:

























the sad part i like to call after:
and yes, i do realize how embarrassing this picture is ;)
so that's another thing i'm glad you listened to me complain about. until later!

i'm a circus act

so juggling everything isn't as easy as it was when I was younger, i can tell you that much. Homework, swimming, social life (that is always the first thing to cut out in times of chaos), keeping up with the people I love, doing my chores, and trying to get a decent amount of sleep :p
okay, I'm done complaining now. But it's true, i guess the older you get the more people expect out of you, and being a high schooler is quite the work, at least for now it is. about that cutting my social life out thing, how do you know what people to cut out? it doesn't take long to learn that you can't make everybody happy, so who do you keep happy? i'm still focusing on that question, i'll tell you when i figure it out.

thanks for listening :)